open hearts don’t break

my busy days feel like a blur

things get jumbled up in my head

i don’t know what i said to who

but it doesn’t matter

i know i was honest and brave in each moment

looking back on my day

i have my pictures

my glimmers

my precious moments

i choose to focus on those

and remember those moments

remember those feelings

and go back to them whenever i want

whenever i need them most

my phone is full of pictures

and so is my mind

i think in pictures

always visualizing the next thing

it takes up a lot of memory

i know my brain can hold more words than it can videos and snapshots of memories past

maybe that’s why i write

i’m worried my photo storage might get full

so i write it all down

i want to keep everything

because i love everything and everyone so much

but it’s spring cleaning

time to let go

but what if it’s all solidified and become a part of me?

time to clean deeper

the hardest part about letting go isn’t letting go once

it’s the decision you make

day after day

to let go again and again

tearing at little pieces of your heart

one by one

until your heart shatters

and the pain is excruciating

but only for a moment

then suddenly

it doesn’t hurt anymore

you feel numb

and now you know

it’s time to grow a new heart

this time built from an empty nest

this time built from your own love

and every day

you’ll learn how to keep it open

soft

pliable

yet strong

loving with an open heart is the bravest thing you can do

and yet also the safest

why you ask?

i’ll give away my secret:

open hearts don’t break