hold on

come sit with me for a day

i need love more than you know

i’ve suffered more than you know

i just want to feel okay and safe

more than you know

there has been so much more to my experience

much more than you know

maybe someday i’ll get to tell you

i hope someday it won’t matter

but it always will

every single part of this is shaping me into who i’m becoming

i want to become whole again

but what does that even mean?

when i realize i am bits and pieces of everyone i have ever shared a part of my soul with i think that’s the most beautiful thing in the world

and i wouldn’t want to erase that

so what if i’m a messy murky mixture of energy?

so much of modern spirituality is based on the idea of purification

but if we strip and strip and strip until we’re so sterile what is left?

i get the idea of wanting to strip down to your bare soul

but don’t cast away the experiences and the people and the energy that has brought you to where you are today

no matter how painful

people and places and environments and experiences are our greatest teachers

may we hold them with the sacred reverence they deserve

so live in the present

but keep your memories close

celebrate the beautiful mess

accept every part of it

and instead of releasing

hold on

for the precious second you’re here on this planet

hold on