hurt

you know you’re healing when it hurts

when you let yourself feel

when you’re not numb to anything anymore

i become who i am by not knowing

a quote that i teared out of a magazine for a collage last year

has stuck with me

and today

it’s exactly what i’m feeling

i’ve been reflecting on this past year

it’s been hard watching my body disintegrate

it seems like no one else notices

and i feel terribly alone on this journey

but i remain proud of myself

for taking care of myself

for treating myself and others with love and respect through all of this

for being the artist that i am

for being the human that i am

for simply being

for coming back to the frequency of softness and love every chance i get

for honoring my sacred rage and fire as passion and love too

for realizing that if you take anything and dissect it long enough

it all comes back to love

for my beautiful brain and heart

for my body and soul

i am grateful

and eternally proud